The Last Breath

I m in such a dilemma. AIX. Let me just sigh for a moment here. Because I think I m caught in a trap where all I had to do is give give give n give. I didn’t receive much at all from the other side. When my side have been caring and generous from ur side, I start to learn that I m not as much as important as u are. It’s very contradicting and hard to understand because I don’t wanna make it to obvious after all. My side has been spending so much money and very welcoming towards u. And u know, the dramas and the fairytales of every girl dreamt was to be loved by more than one more family and the acceptance in a new home. Where strangers will love you just as much as their own child. Then I try to confide in myself on not putting such high hopes and derange big, but honestly, I have been waiting for that to happen. It may not probably happen right now. Ita kinda impossible. I know them well enough to judge this, maybe it’s the tip of the iceberg. I m being judgmental. But please, prove me wrong.I wanna be wrong. I can’t force a laughter and a smile for everything and put on a sarcasm conversation. I just wanna be myself bunt it’s hard right now.but tnk about it. I m a girl. Why do I have to act like a boy? It feels like I have to carry a responsible and a duty of a guy. I wish I wasn’t that strong. Wasnt that act smart. I wanna be vulnerable. Where people treated me with care and love. I’d longed for that to come. :(

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If you don’t know the hype and hustle going about in Facebook right now, you should be. A poor toy poodle named ”SUSHI” has and had been severely abused by its two owners. Owners who it thought is a good shelter to seek. But who would’ve thought that the humans it love most could have been so evil. Words cant express how deeply angry and sorry i am for them. They have no rights to call themselves as loving people. They cant show the simplest respect to dogs, so arent we gonna do that to them. Probably i would wanna say, put that guy in a room with me for 30 minutes and i will show his sorry a$$ how to sit up straight. Last night, after braving to watch the video for 15 mins in whole, i realised, man kind and humanity has come to an end. All the things we learnt and thought for, will be all forgotten. And it proves so much in that video. But for some of u who didnt manage to see that vid, well, it had been removed. Good in a way, u wont get to see the horrific stunts they pulled. I couldnt bear to whack and throw that pup around.Shame on u! I loved dogs sinced the very first day i was born. Growing up with different different pets at home, thought me to be compassionate towards dogs. I wouldnt say animals, but dogs in particular. It hurts and breaks my heart just to see people treating dogs these days. Its no way to be like that. If only dogs could express their anger and unsatisfaction. But they couldnt, because they will only love you for who you are. That’s the most interesting thing i will ever noe. The creation of bonding between humans and dogs. Amazing chemistry. The greatest love above all. We will stand and unite as one to defend all the helpless dog to find a shelter. We shall never leave and forsake any of u and as along that there is faith, there will be hope for all. Don’t sto believing

I really think i made the right move of not publicizing my blog and letting the whole world linking me like it is some kinda popularity trend. Damn! I was right in the beginning of still keeping some space of privacy for myself. I need to set this straight : I DONT LIKE SHOWING 100% OF MY LIFE IN CYBER. Its weird cuz one of my friend came to me and say “Hey deph,how come i never see u posting a lot of pics of u and ur bf?”. Hello! SHould i tell the whole world that i we are in love? I dont like doing that. I dont need to show the world how “deeply” in love we are and what is in between us will only be between us. And half of the time, people keep SNOOPING at ur pics and ur updates and ur shout-outs like they heck care about u. But most of the time, they never really do care about u and asking how are u when they bump into u. How “true”! It will only tell u who are those that are true to you. And do u get irritated by some people who post something that are SO NOT true about themselves. They do not preach what they say,to be short. They go around telling how great about themselves, but once u have a taste of their medicine, they are as hollow as they can be. Then the next minute u realised, this person is such a waste of space in ur friend list.The recent annoying encounter for me is, people come and read about ur life in the dark. Who would’ve thought ur profile would be as seemingly private.In ur dreams! Its surprising how they know it.I think the best way to overcome this is, NEVER EVER type out ur true feelings. I am doing this because this blog is as private as my ten fingers could count. And it only give me another mutton good reason why i wanan deactivate and by cyberly dead. Cuz i m not interested in ur life, and i hope u arent interested in mine.